Rawr.

So instead of cleaning my office (and the rest of the house for that matter) I've decided to procrastinate by writing a blog. I'm disappointed with certain things in my life, but I'm not exactly sure what to do about them. I guess I'm more so disappointed with myself and how I allow things to be. I want to change, but I don't know where to begin. I want to be who I used to be, but I don't know how to find myself again. One day I hope to catch a glimpse....

I just have to remember that every passing minute is a chance to turn it all around.

Tomorrow is a new day. I will start my journey towards change.

Reflection

ever wonder what its like to be free
away from all the tradgedy
feeling like a newborn
covered with innocence
with all absence of fears
and a sense of curious imagination
ready to explore the world with no bias
just an open book with a pen and paper
ready to jot down all experiences
all the dreams and hopes you could wish
all that can be done could be done
with one single life altering decision

ever wonder what life would be
if everyone could accept one another
compromising all their feelings towards differences
subjecting their mind to openness
a world with out hate
bringing peace to all
no fear of shame
for openness sees no differences and welcomes change

ever remember the days of your childhood
where you can see the exact memory
as it all plays out on the movie screen in your head
all the fond sounds and feelings flood back
with such a force that leaves you stunned

ever wonder what your life would be
if you could change every decision you've made
what paths you've taken
would they lead you back to your starting point
or would you end at a trophy held high on a shelf
would you be something glamory and glittery
with a fake smile and a cold hug
would you be one dieing to fit in yet needing to be different
with a continuing depression, eyeliner, and black finger nails
would you be all prim and proper pulled by a string
with lips moving yet never speaking a word
every toss and turn leads us towards an infinate journey
a journey whoose end will never be found
a journey defined by endless possibilty

Finally!

My semester is over! Whoo-hooo! I will miss some classes though. I will miss ceramics and photography. I won't find out my final grades until next week, hopefully I do well. I think I will get 3 A's and 2 B's. I brought Irene to my Photography Critique (Tuesday) and my Ceramics Critique (Wednesday). Here's what happened:
Tuesday:
9 am- French Final
10-11 am- I talked to my humanities prof about some books he recommended me reading. I ordered them on Amazon yesterday! I've never done it before, so I can't wait to get them.
11 am- Humanities Final
11:50 am- went home, gathered my portfolio for photography.
1 pm- picked irene up.
- we went to school, and I sold my books back. $215 towards Paris. Woot!
2:30 pm- The photography critique that lasted forever. The only thing that I took away from the critique, was that he really hated the one model's shirt because the cap sleeve was just not a flattering look on the model. haha.
4:15 pm- The Prof looked at my portfolio.
4:20 pm- Irene and I went to Ulta (the most amazing store in the world) and then Target.
6:15 pm- Irene and I met our boys and their parents at Baker's Square for dinner. Mmm. pie.
7:30 pm- Irene and I went to Old Navy ( the other most amazing store in the world) for jeans. We ended up buying more than jeans though. haha.

Wednesday
12:40 pm- Picked up Irene
1:00 pm- Ceramics Critique. (Will post pictures later.)
4:00 pm- Crepes at Baker's Square. Mm pie.
5:00 pm- Work.

So now that school is out, I have a ton of little things to do. Hopefully I get them done quickly so I can relax and do art project with Irene!