Friday, December 4, 2009

Finale

Ah! So finals week is here! I don't believe that I have classes on Monday! I have to spend this day painting. haha. I have two 75% completed paintings and one 25% completed painting that are all due Thursday. Tuesday morning is my first final (animal biology)and I'm a little worried. hah. I hate the format of the tests that she has given out this semester, and I imagine that the final will be no different. Boo. Wednesday I have two finals, economics and social psychology. Thursday I have two finals, painting and color photography, but I'm pretty sure those won't be hard at all. I'm glad that I already had one final already (health fitness). I aced it :). Only missed 2 questions! Go me. haha. I'm so happy for this semester to end. Never again will I take this many classes. Stupid, stupid girl. haha. Damn you, over-achievement! BUT! There is good news for all my obsessiveness with taking as many classes as I can... I may get my Associate's Degree next semester! WOOT! I was checking everything out this evening (because I can't sleep), and I only need to take 2 more classes. YAYYYYYY. :)

I also figured out which college I want to transfer to, and finally what I want to do career wise. :) I want to go to Ursuline College (roughly 30 minutes away from my house) for art therapy and counseling. Their art therapy program is an undergraduate program, so first i have to get my bachelors in art. I can't do that at my current school, so I will complete that there. I also talked to a graduate from their program/retired art therapist in my painting class. She told me wonderful things about the program, and how Cleveland is a great area for art therapy. That is relieving, because I was beginning to think that there was no hope for me in the art world. That I might have to switch gears to something more practical to get a job. I'm really excited though. And I'm happy that I've finally made a decision. I was beginning to worry that I may never figure it out. I want to schedule an appointment to tour the school and talk to a counselor before I apply just to make sure that it's what I want and to take a look around. The only thing that intimidates me is the price. It's a little bit pricey, and I'm not exactly sure how I'm going to afford it. I'm hoping for financial aid. :) If not, I guess there are always different loans to take out. haha.

I think next semester I'm going to take 4 classes. A psychology class based on human behavior, a physical science, painting 2 (I really enjoyed painting 1), and I'm debating between comparative religion or commercial photography. I'm feeling comparative religion. OH! Or I could take a jewelry making class :). (haha. I think this is why I always get stuck taking like 5 or 6 classes, because I can never narrow it down to 4.) I hear that the jewelry class is crazy expensive though.. so I may just stick with comparative religion. I know the professor, and he's awesome. I've been meaning to stop by his office and chat with him. Things have been crazy lately and I haven't found the time to stop by.

Ok, so I just realized that it's 2am and I have work in 6 hours. haha. FML. haha. I shouldn't have drank that coffee at 10pm. Off to sleep, I say!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Let the games begin!

Ah! The calm before the storm! haha. Monday marks start of the crazy period: the end of the semester. Papers, finals, presentations, paintings, critiques, and stress! YAY. I'm pumped! (sarcasm) It's crazy. This semester has gone by so quickly, but I can't wait for it to be over. haha.

The last 4 weeks have been pretty nice. I've enjoyed having the extra time (from not working)to catch up on things. I've been watching a lot of Netflick movies. Some good, a lot of mediocre, and some bad. But still, I do love movies. What gets me is that I still seem to not have enough time in the day (maybe there would be more time if I stopped watching so many movies, eh?)! haha. There's really no excuse for not getting things done because... well, I don't have a job! (The photolab job doesn't count because its only 6 hours a week.) Although I haven't gotten much checked of my numerous lists, I have been having some good times and spending some quality time with Stephen <3!

Last Saturday was the opening the France exhibit at school. It was really nice to see everyone again and reacquaint. The professors that led the class created a really great video for all of us. It has the best shots from all the students on it, the prints shown in the gallery (they only chose the 20 best images), candid shots, video of the Rouen light show, video of the Mozart concert I saw inside the Notre Dame cathedral, and some other random video clips captured by Frank (one of the professors). We haven't gotten the final DVD yet (Frank had some final touches to add), but I'm excited for it! I'm hoping Frank might let me borrow a disc to bring home on Thanksgiving break to show my family.

Tuesday of this week was an exciting day! It was filled to the brim with fun. haha. It started off bright and early at 7:15 am when i had to get ready for my Animal Biology class. I got on the road to pick up a classmate at 7:45 am and we headed to the Metro Farmpark in Kirtland. It was a pretty interesting place! I had been there once before with Steve during the summer for a craft festival that they have every year, but this time it was all in the name of animals! haah.



The first stop we made was the dairy section, were we saw 4 cows and a baby calf. The calf was sooooo cute. I was petting her when she thought that I had some food, so she started nibbling and sucking on my arm. It was the most awkward feeling! Cows only have teeth on the bottom, but because the calf was only a month old, it didn't even have those developed. So it was like having a slimy-wet, gummy, mush sucking on my arm. It was gross. I laughed pretty hard though. The older cows were cute. They were mainly concerned with eating hay and drinking their water. We then learned how to make cheese from milk. We weren't allowed to taste it, as Ohio has laws against consuming products that aren't pasteurized/homogenized, but it was still an interesting process to watch nonetheless. Next we saw some pigs, sheep, goats (baby goats too!), llamas, alpacas, chickens, horses, turkey, and rabbits. I also saw this cute little cat that was basking in the sun. She loved getting petted. Then Rachel (a classmate) and I went to Chipotle for some lunch. It was deeeeelicious.

Later I met up with Nikki (another classmate) and her boyfriend Dean to go up to the Cleveland Art Museum. We went to see the Gauguin exhibit that is there. It was pretty sweet. I had two favorite parts: the contemporary gallery anddddddd (drumroll please.....) the Childrens area! haha. The Childrens area was awesome because it had mini stations with activities. There was a station with a special molding clay that never dries out, which allows you to constantly change the form and mold it into something new. There were others with colored paper and like 20 different stamps of miniature Gauguin paintings. It was cool. :) I definitely want to go back before the exhibit closes because we went a little later in the day and didn't have a whole lot of time to spend with the work. Hopefully next time I'll get there earlier and have more time to spend gazing at the work. It was pretty awesome. I remember seeing some of the paintings in France... but by that point I was like 'yeah, yeah. Museums and paintings, museums and paintings.' Then I would actually visit the place in the painting and I just didn't correlate the two together. Seeing them again really allowed me to have that 'AH HA!' moment where it finally clicked. It was a really cool experience.

This week should be pretty exciting too! TURKEY TIMEEEEE! haah. Man, I love homemade mashed potatoes and gravy. Mm, mm, mm. :) I get to drive back home and see my family and eat my mom's cooking. Oh buoy! It'll be cool to see my brother too. :) Then Steve and I will come back home and visit his family. Probably play some games, have some laughs. Ah. Family. :)

I also start my new job at the World Market in Mayfield. That'll be fun. I hear its pretty dirty and the people aren't helpful as they should be... so all in all should be a good time! haha. I'm hoping that it won't be as bad as what people have told me, but I can't wait for the income! Whoohoo! haah.

OH! I almost forgot! (I know I can go back and edit, but that's no fun. haha) I got 3 shots into the France exhibit at school. I also finished a painting that I could like! haha. It's a painting of an old worn jean shirt. My professor has a thing for jean shirts, and just can bear the thought of throwing away a perfectly good jean shirt. He's a funny character. Makes me giggle. :) I think I may take his other painting class next semester. :) Currently I'm working on a few paintings... ones with multiple purses in different angles and hands reaching for them, another is a warm, fresh from the oven chocolate chip cookie being separated down the middle (you'll be able to smell it when I'm done), and the last one is a mermaid in the ocean with seaweed. The colors of the mermaid painting are going to replicate the ones used in some fauvist paintings. I'm excited to see them all finished.

After painting today, Irene and I went out for a late linner (the lunch that's really close to dinnertime) and then went shopping at a party supply store, target, and pat catan's. We even went sniffing around Ulta for some appealing scents. I was sniffing around for some ideas for xmas colognes for Stevie and to see if I remembered which perfume I liked correctly. haha.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Wonder

Have you ever wondered what things would be like if you didn't exist? How do YOU make a difference in this vast world. What about if you were gone tomorrow?

I know this may seem strange, but lately I've been wondering about it. I'm curious to know how peoples' lives would (or wouldn't) change without my existence. Would people be happy or sad? Would they feel like something was missing? Or would it just be something that they couldn't place. I mean, after all. They would have never met me, known about me, and I'm pretty sure their lives wouldn't be affected.

But what about right now? If I were to disappear, who would truly care? (Besides the obvious) Sometimes it seems as if I'm invisible to people, or that no one would even notice if I were gone. Such as working in the photo lab. I know it's just a job, but people don't even say hello! They walk in and out, right beside me, and not even acknowledge my presence. Even when I say hello to them, they don't respond. It's much like the customers walking through the doors of World Market... And you know that they hear you, they just for whatever reason (may it be them being in their own world, they just didn't hear you, or them just being a jackass) they chose not to respond.

Oh well. Who knows. Who cares, right? (I do...)

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Mistake

I'm a little unsure of what to think, but I know and understand that it is my own fault. I shouldn't have done what I did, but I was curious. I regret it and am disappointed by it. It hurts and probably will for awhile. After all, I really believed we were friends. Only time will tell if the damage done can heal itself, but I doubt the relationship will ever completely be the same. I thought I knew you better, but I was gravely mistaken. Turns out that you are just like the rest. I had high hopes that things would be different between us. But then again, I shouldn't have had high expectations. It only leads to disappointment. Only time can tell...

Anyway, I have a terrible headache right now. Charlie is here to comfort me.

I picked up a new CD the other day by a group called The Books. I had never heard them before until Frank at the photo-lab was in his office listening to them. I made a cup of tea and stood in his doorway to listen to a song. They're an experimental indie rock group. I enjoy their mellow edge. The words they picked to speak in their songs are chosen perfectly.

I drove to North Olmsted the other day to work at the World Market out there for the day. It's about 45 minutes to an hour away. I'm not fond of highway driving, but it was pretty easy to navigate. The store itself I had trouble finding, but eventually I did. It's an adorable store and the staff is wonderful. I did get lost on the way home, but I got there. I was a bit (understatement) upset. I hate getting lost by myself. Add in a fast-paced highway, cars speeding well above the speed limit, rain, shitty windshield wipers, cars cutting you off, and Mac trucks on either side of your vehicle. haha. It was a bit nerve racking. I suppose its strange to have those fears, but I don't want to get into an accident. One is enough. Overall, it was a very pleasant day. It was very different from what I'm accustomed to as of lately. They actually have product to sell, and the customers were really nice!

Speaking of my store, our final day is October 24th. Well, the last day open to the general public. The last two weeks after the 24th will be spent cleaning the store. All my coworkers invited me out to the bar that night for a final good-bye, World Market style. After all, a dollar more, holler more! haha.

Man. My head is pounding and my eyes are heavy. The pain is interrupting my thoughts. Hypnos is calling my name. I think I will visit him...

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Strange Days...

Ah.The past few weeks (actually past month) has been a strange time. I can't say for sure if it has been good or bad... just strange. I don't feel like my normal self. I feel sort of misguided in a way. Only time will tell if something good will come from the current chaos.

I found out a few weeks ago that the store that I'm currently working at will be closing, and therefore, I will lose my job. I lose my vacation time and my health benefits, which is going to suck... but I guess I'll have to manage. I'm a little angry about it, which I'm sure many could empathize with. I'm not angry that I'm losing my job or losing the benefits and all that jazz... I'm angry because it had nothing to do with the economy. The lease ran up, and the mall owner raised the rent because he's being greedy. I've heard rumors that he wants to demolish the whole strip plaza that is currently there and rebuild a new, better mall. At least if it was due to the economy, I could understand better and probably be less angry...

Not only am I upset with the mall owner, but I'm perturbed about why Corporate decided against just relocating to a different (cheaper) location. There are plenty of open store fronts elsewhere, and they would probably get more traffic through the doors. That would in turn produce more sales and more customers. Corporate said that our location was too close to a neighboring store. The problem with saything that is the fact that the neighboring store is in the middle of a different market. It's located in a richer area, where people are more willing to drop a shit ton of money. Corporate believes that our customers are willing and able to drive the extended distance to visit this store. I can guarentee that customers will not do so. They have told me that they will never go there, and have also given me a great deal of grief when I had previously refered them to the neighboring store. Customers that are driving from Jefferson (about 1.5 hours away) are just simply not going to drive an extra half hour to buy merchandise, they just simply won't go. They will find their merchandise elsewhere. I don't think corporate relizes how much business they are going to lose by closing this location completely. Maybe they know what they are doing though. I can only hope because I really do like the merchandise we sold (even though sometimes I didn't always agree with the quality...). Anyway, I shall digress.

Another thing I will miss are the friends I've made since working there. Recently I've come to the conclusion that they may not really be my friends. They've been saying some pretty hurtful things to me. They say that it's something that I need to hear, I say that its hurtful and is really unnecissary. I realize that they may be stressed out with the fact of their unknown future fate, but we're all in the same boat. We are all freaking out because we simply don't know what our future holds. We all have no idea if we will be able to pay our bills. We all have to deal with idiotic customers that are oblivious to our feelings and our welfare. That is the joy of working in retail. YOU have to deal with assholes for a living. You get paid shit and you get treated like shit. The perk of this is, that due to having to deal with all that stress, the turnover rate is high... which means that you'll probably be able to find a job pretty quickly with the amount of experience that we all have. I'm confident that we will all be ok in the long run. It's just a temporary set back.

So on top of that stress, I'm taking 6 classes (which I've listed in my previous blog), and I recently bought a new car. It's the coolest car ever. 2001 Volkswagon Jetta. I've always wanted a Jetta since before I could drive. haha. It's been one of my dream cars for awhile. And now I have one! I'm so lucky! I'm learning to drive it because it's a stick shift, and I've never driven a stick. haha. It's an interesting journey. I'm not as scared of traffic as I was when I first started. I can actually go the speed limit! I've been doing pretty well at not stalling out at lights or burning out at stop signs! Yay for me! I think I shall name her Lucy. haha. Everytime I get in the car, 'Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds' is one of the first few songs that she plays (even on the Ipod).

Mike and Irene also temporarily moved in with us until they can find a house. It's nice to have the extra company; people to laugh with and laugh about random things. I've also been enjoying Irene's cooking. She makes me a special plate to eat when I get home. I will miss that when they leave. It'd be cool if we found like a two story house where we'd all live. haha. It would be fun! I'm sure the boys may not like the idea, since they've mostly lived with each other their whole life. I can respect that, but still. It'd be cool. haha. I just hope that when they do find their new home, that we will see each other as often. It's pleasant.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Wonderland

Ah. I've been enjoying the past few days. I requested them off of work. Hadn't had anything to do except everything! haha. I decided to not care, and just seize the moment. It all started Friday night.

Earlier in the week, my fellow coworkers and I were discussing a much needed party night before the start of school. We couldn't figure out why we hadn't done such things before, since we all are friends and get along pretty well. We decided to have one soon. Friday. :)

After work the 5 of us met up at Frank and Tony's. Two of them had been there for a few hours. (They wanted to get a head start and also reserve a table.) It was the first time I had actually gotten a table at this bar. It was lovely. The waitress had gotten us a drink order, then we didn't see her again for 45 minutes. We noticed that our buzz was slowly declining the longer we waited for a drink, so we got pro-active about it... 4 shots at a time. haah.

Eventually we decided that we needed a walk, so we walked down to a different bar (probably my favorite one), 1899. We had a shot there and went back to Frank and Tony's. During the walk back, I announced that I really wished Steve had come out to join us. We went in, grabbed our table again, and got some more drinks. Then randomly I look up and got excited. Steve was there! I guess he had been there earlier, just didn't see us. Perfect timing. I can't remember what all we talked about, but the conversation was filled with laughter. The bar closed and we all piled into Steve's car and headed to Sheetz. We had to go there because they have awesome food and my coworker had never been there before. Then we went back to the bars' parking lot and shot the breeze while eating our food. I chased a possum who was on the top of a fence. I thought it was a kitten and wanted to pet him. It didn't happen.. haha.. but it was fun talking to him. He was a very kind animal. We hung out until about 4 am. Quotes from the evening: Click, click, boom; Come, come my lady, Sugar, butterfly, baby. haha.

Steve and I woke up around 8 to go get our books at school. Then we met Vladi for breakfast at IHOP. He met us at our place to meet Chanel. She reminded him of his cats when they were younger. They're so big now! I wish that I could freeze Chanels growth. haha. I love my little baby cat. No matter how big she gets though, she'll still be my baby cat. Later that day we went to Greg and Kathleen's anniversary party. It was fun. Met some new people and talked to friends. We played hillbilly golf and later I beat up Steve. Well, tried. haha. I was trying to tackle him. I got my bull horns on (complete with a french mustache) and ran at him. He didn't move, I fell to the ground. haha. Good times.

Woke up at 2pm today. Went to the gym with Steve and then went school shopping for last minute items Steve needed. Came home and watched a really good movie. Phoebe in Wonderland. I really recommend you watching it.

Now in the early hours of the morning, I'm sitting in my adirondack chair outside listening to the sounds of the night. Crickets, the waterfall from across the street, and some chirping thing in the trees. I don't think it's a bird, but who knows. It may be a bat. I'm admiring the stars and the sky. It's a perfect sky. A slight view of the clouds with sparkles through it. Parts are clear. It's beautiful. I don't even mind the hum of our pop machine in the garage. It almost adds to the calmness. There's a slight breeze. I just love the sound of the wind rustling through the leaves. I also love the sound of my fish wind chime. Its pretty perfect. It doesn't overcome the rest of the night sounds...

I start class tomorrow. So now, my friends, I shall sleep. I think I should take a few days off more often.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Hot Hot Heat...

Gosh. I really don't like the mugginess of summer. The past two days have been horrible. At least yesterday I was at work for most of the day, and then took a quick dip in the Lake with a friend. It was a good visit. Hadn't seen her in awhile. It always fascinates me how we can always just pick things up where they left off, no matter how much time has passed in between our visits. It's going to be harder to see each other soon, for I have a busy upcoming semester. Hopefully I will survive with everything in tact...

Today, though, was supposed to be different. It was supposed to be a wake-up-early-and-go-get-active day with Irene also in attendance. Yeah, the only action I got was extra sleep and moving my thumbs on the X-box controller. I'm not sure whats up with me lately, I just don't want to get up. Maybe it's the heat or lack of motivation. Maybe even a combination of both. I feel that I let things go too easily. I always say instead of do. When push comes to shove, I never admit to myself that I could actually do what I say instead of just shrugging it off....

SO! From this point on, I'm going to go get 'em Tiger:
-I will not be hard on myself when things don't go as planned.
-I will stay positive.
-I will do what I say.
-I will not complain about doing so.
-I will not be self-defeating.
-I will do my best.
-I will!

I will do all this while maintaining my sanity! (And hopefully love and friendships too. I'd hate to loose either.) I just hope that people will be patient with me, and realize that I am going to have a LOT, I mean... A LOT... going on. 6 classes and 2 jobs. I'm not sure about the two jobs though. I hope to have 2 jobs. Although I know it will be hard (that's what she said), I look forward to the challenge. I'm excited to start classes...

My fall classes:
Economics, Sociology, Health Fitness, Animal Biology, Painting, and Color Photography.

My Ideal Fall Schedule: (Tenative)
Sunday: 11am -8pm World Market

Monday: 9:30am -10:45 am Economics
11am- 12:15pm Lunch/Study Time
12:30pm -1:45pm Sociology
2pm-3:10pm Health Fitness
3:10pm -4:45pm Dinner/Study Time
5pm -10pm World Market

Tuesday: 9am- 11:50am Animal Biology
12pm -1:30pm Lunch/Study Time
1:30pm -4:10pm Painting
4:15pm -4:45pm Dinner Time
5pm -10pm World Market

Wednesday: 9:30am -10:45 am Economics
11am- 12:15pm Lunch/Study Time
12:30pm -1:45pm Sociology
2pm-3:10pm Health Fitness
3:10pm -4:45pm Dinner/Study Time
5pm -10pm World Market

Thursday: 9am- 11:50am Animal Biology
12pm -1:30pm Lunch/Study Time
1:30pm -4:10pm Painting
4:15pm -6pm Dinner Time/ Study Time / Work at the Photolab
6pm -10pm Color Photography

Friday: NICODAY! My day to do things around the house. Maybe hanging out with Irene (if she's not working). Cooking a nice meal for Stevie. We could have family over and make it a party or we could just chillax. Cuddle and a movie! :) Could work during the day if needed.

Saturday:Split day between Photolab and World Market

I hope that this works out and everyone will be happy. :)

TO DO (Before School)
-Organize Hall Closet
-Clean off Dresser
-Clean Room/Organize room
-Clean Bathroom
-Laundry
-Clean Kitchen
-Vaccum